January 21st – Comfort

One Minute Writer Prompt:
What is the best way someone can comfort you when you are grieving?

This could be one of two ways, and it varies as I go through the different stages of grief. Sometimes, I want to simply be left alone to think and deal with my feelings. Other times, I need to be with close family and friends, as I need that closeness right there. For me, this floats between both needs during my grieving process. It is just a matter of which one I need at that particular time. But, it is always one or the other. I have found with death in the family, being around family is one of the best comforts.


Beating those winter blues

So, I have been struggling with my mood the last few days… while life isn’t a bowl of cherries (who has a life like that?), it sure isn’t horrible. However, the winter blues can make you feel like everything is depressing and all you want to do is absolutely nothing.

I am working to fight and get over this seasonal issue, as thankfully, the cold snap that has overcome Florida seems to be taking a hike within the next day or two. Trying to get myself back into regular workouts will definitely help me a lot. Today, I went out and did a twenty minute brisk walk which felt great. Yes, it was still cold and windy, but I forced myself to get outside and take in the fresh air.

This disorder (known as Seasonal Affective Disorder) normally affects those in the northern states where winter is more harsh. However, this winter has been anything but ordinary for every state in the country. That said, I am not surprised that my body has been experiencing it. Going to make sure that it doesn’t win though, as I have worked hard to not only get healthy and fit, but to mentally relax and feel good. So, these blues aren’t going to get the better of me. Not saying it is an easy thing to get over or what have you, but there are ways to do it.

If you have stumbled across my humble musings here and are curious about the winter blues or S.A.D., here are some links you might want to check out:

December 14th – Rush

Rush. When did you get your best rush of the year?

The word, ‘rush’ has multiple meanings. There’s rush, as in a rush to get from point a to point b…there’s a rush as in a natural high, that great feeling one gets when something great or inspiring has happened… and then there’s rush as in a plant (yes, this is true, I tell no lie). All of that said, I am going to go with the second meaning in regards to this question.

My best rush was being able to fit into clothes I never imagined being able to wear in my life. That feeling when you are trying on a pair of pants that you are sure is too small for your figure, yet they fit is like no other. I experienced this particular rush while up in New York this past Fall visiting family and friends. I had gone shopping with one of my aunts one afternoon. We were entering stores I had only previously wished I could shop in. Having been the girl who wore size 18/20 most of her life, even considering a single digit size of clothing was unthought of in my mind. Never did I think that I would be wearing clothes eight sizes smaller, this thought or consideration never even entered my thoughts.
So, this particular day in New York, trying on a pair of pants that my aunt insisted would fit me, in a size that I did not even reach for was a big deal. Inside that dressing room, I slide on the pair of khaki pants, right leg first, then the left. Pulling the pants up to my waist, I the rush began all at once. As I buttoned the two buttons on the pants, the excitement within me quickly arose. They fit! They really fit me! I was beyond stunned and full of happiness. As I opened the dressing room door to reveal myself to my aunt, I was grinning from ear to ear. This was definitely going to be a moment in my life that I would never forget. What a great feeling.

This post is a part of Gwen Bell’s Best of 2009 Challenge.